Already and Only

This weekend marks the halfway point of my time here in Costa Rica.  I cannot believe that I have already been here for a month and a half, and on the flip side, I can't believe it's only been a month and a half.  The concept of time is simply mind-bending.

Quickly re-capping my trip thus far at 32x, I think about how much I have done, all that I have seen, and the amount of knowledge I have gained.  I feel like I have seen all there is to be seen and done all there is to be done, though I know that is far from the truth.  I just can't fathom what this next half of my trip will entail, other than the continuous improvement of my Spanish speaking abilities–Lord willing.

I have been blessed with the opportunity to see some of the most beautiful places, meet amazing life-long friends, and drink incredible coffee, all of which shatter any excuse I could come up with to not believe in our awesome Creator.  My adventures here have been life-giving, life-enriching, and at times life-threatening.  And I wouldn't trade any one of them for the world.

I also think about how I have to do the time I just did over again before I get to throw my arms around my bride-to-be and hold her while sharing tears of joy just outside security in the PDX airport.  That I have to do it over again before I get to enjoy my fireplace, a cold glass of eggnog, and a movie with my family.  That I have to do it over again before I am enjoying the cool, crisp mornings of winter countered by a peppermint mocha, my wool coat and scarf.

Thinking of all these things I can't help but wrestle with the two poles of already, and only.